All my life I’ve wanted to be chosen.
I wanted my mom to love me best. My dad to choose me over his new wife, his new life.
I wanted to be a boy’s first pick, to fall in love at first sight (mutually!), to be a “cool kid”.
I wanted to be chosen for principle performer at the opera company, to be chosen for publication, to be chosen as an excellent blogger, author, singer, friend, wife, mother, person.
I feel like I’m still waiting on most of those things. Still trying. Still hoping.
And some days, maybe even most days, I feel like I’ll never get there–I’ll never be chosen because that would be too easy. My life isn’t meant to be easy, I think. No one’s life is–no matter how it looks from the outside.
Recently I read this quote by a leader in my church:
You don’t need an invitation before you start moving in the direction of your righteous goals. You don’t need to wait for permission to become the person you were designed to be. We can sometimes waste years of our lives waiting to be chosen. But that is a false premise. You are already chosen!
–Dieter F. Uchtdorf
And you know? I am moving in the direction of my goals. I’m not letting the challenges of my life keep me from pushing on, fighting through. But I still hadn’t clued in to the Magic Words.
I am already chosen.
Those words are magical to me, like charms sprinkled from a Fairy Godmother. I may not have those worldly recognitions, those framed certificates or neon lights that tell the world ALI IS CHOSEN … but I know who I am. I know God loves me. My husband loves me. My children love me. Strangely, miraculously, I think they would choose me, if given the choice. And even if it wasn’t love at first sight between David and I, it was pretty darn close. I would choose him again, too. Over and over again.
Life is hard, yes. We don’t get what we want–often. But none of us have to wait for the magic to happen to us or for us. WE are magic. We can choose happiness all on our own, regardless of the world around us. God loves us. HE has chosen us–and He’s the only one that matters.
I hope you find hope and happiness in your life. And even if someone/some place hasn’t chosen you, hasn’t offered you the opportunities you need …. don’t give up and remember …. you’re not alone.